Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @ 5:39 PM

Stopped beating.

I just hoped everything will go back to it used to be. But it will nvr.
Th last text you sent me was, "If ure still too stubborn to chg, I guess im not th one for you. Sorry."
Yea, there it goes. Finished.
Evrything ended just so suddenly. It started 10mths ago, so sweetly. I'll nvr forget.

You said I chged 7 mths ago. Im not th girl u knew. If u hasnt get a listening ear, you'll explode.
If you couldnt tolerate me anymore, and this relatiionship is so bad till you will explode, whts th point of continuing this r/s?
You told your friends i chged, but have u ever tell them u chged too? Im always th bad guy to ur frens. I nvr tell any of my friends how had u chged and how much u had chged. Neither does i tel them abt my problems.

You? You went telling ur friend, claiming tht if u dont get a listening ear, you will explode.
Thn fine. Go get someone. But why didnt u tell me anything tht happen last night? You chatted w him till 3-4 in th morning telling him how much i changed? Had i chged tht much tht u need to spend hours telling ur frens?
What ur friends will say is always"Break up loh."
Cause they nvr know whats love, tolerance and trust. A million will nvr know.
Perhaps, i've chged so much till u cant tolerate me anymore. I dunno.
You told ur fren u tried to adapt to th way i treat you. But have u ever tell them how much i tried to understand u?

When ure jealous, you dont tell me. WHen ure angry, u dont tell me. When you get fustrated, i asked u why, u said nvm. And u went telling him i treated u v badly and all these months, u had been tolerating me.

Fine, thn stop tolerating. You said whenever you told me i chged, i always starts a quarrel.
Fine, im wrong. But how many times had i changed just to satisfy u? And how many times had u chged to satsfy me? Why must we chged so many times just to satisfy each other but failed in th end?

I rmb me asking u these many months ago, when i 1st knew u, " Will you ever hate me? Will u ever stop loving me?"
You gave me back, " No, never will. We will grow old tgt. And go through everything tgt."
I believed you, for i supposed im too naived at tht time.
But what u just texted me was"If ure too stubborn to chg, i think im not th one for u, sry."

Theres no such thing as forever love. Nvr will.

Do even have th guts to say i dont love u anymore? Or do u have th guts to say i dont love u like th past?
You gave me reasons for a breakup. Saying if im still not willing to chg, ure not th one for me.

Perhaps, Im really in th wrong. But i was thinking, why must we chg for someone who doesn even realised u chged? And in so many attempts, we all failed.

It ended with a breakup, so easily. Yes, so easily.

Luckily there will be a camp tmr, to keep my mind off these matters.

If ure reading it, pls, come to my class on mon morning. Things tht belonged to you, will be yours.

We had so many attempts in keeping each other happy and trusted.But i didnt know this relationship will be so fragile. You promised me,you will love me forever and will nvr leave me unless im a shemale. Only unless imshemale. I still had those seven promises on th flowers.

Analyse: You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.